How life run through me…

Sunday, a day where i think it should be a great day..but..i notice that its nt really a great day for me..or was it a great week for me..haiz…i encounter lots of lots of matters which i didnt even predict this would happen..haiz..really..its hard to forget u…u meant too much for me already…i really really wish tis thing still can turn back…should i?or juz let it go..letting u free from a bad person like me….haiz….i dun knoe wad should i do..my brain now is really confuse…very confuse right now….maybe u should tell me the answer..instead let me keep guessing…haiz…

time passes so fast…its already 4 days pass…but…the thing i want to forget..still remain thr….haiz….y???y issit it stil stuck here….honestly i nid a brain wash…might help…haiz…the scar that u created in my heart…its very deep…and that scar had been there since the last few past year…its been 3 years…3 YEARS!!!haiz…and now…i think the only think i can do is to avoid everything which will happen agian..i believe u’re satisfied rite???i’m doing wad u wished for since last time…feel good now???i got nothing more to say already…anger toward u…will juz make the thing more worst..all i wan now is rest…a gud rest..a life where there is no worries for another person….can i say it is happy while spending time with u???or its a sad thing??i dun knoe..i got no comment for those time..those time may be a great time for me…but may be a horror for u…really..i really hope tis will be better for both u and me…wish u happy always…and hope the another person will be always there for u..instead of me…

last night…tonight….how come i feel like the same question pop-out agian?haiz….but this time…maybe i really…really nid to make out a decision…really…a decision where it gud for both u and me….tis may sounds bad..bt…really…maybe its juz my limit…i cant blame on u where the problems is not found out…haiz…wait..wait for almost 3 years…maybe its juz me the one being soo stubborn…u told me time by time…its juz me cant accept it…bt now…i think its the time to pass on my job to the ppl u think whr it can replace me….who knows there is a person out there is more suitable then me…where he loves u and u love him also….but i juz got 1 thing to tell u…i didnt regret for wad i did…all the problem where i face by myself after helping u out…i nvr complain…but still…helping u out is nt the most happy moment for me…its the moment that all things have solved and returns back….haiz..maybe its juz FATE playing me around…a person like me got wad to deserve love from others?? hehehe… well…now..maybe i cant really put it down right now…but..i think it will end very quick…remember..i nvr had a thinking of stopping…hehehe…if u read this…hope u can spend some time..think over it…u might get something…its nt weird that u cant remember anything of mine….maybe i ask u whn is the 1st time i send u till ur house’s door by myself…u might wont remember that…hehehe…well…that’s all i wanna say tonight…i found that i like type out my feel…it feels like talking to someone..that juz that that someone is juz a electrical devieces…. hehehe….

now its 2.41 in the midnight..and i nt yet even went to bed…y?i also dun knoe…the brain nt moving…cuz i’m doing my writing research….my brain cant stop flowing out u…tis have been happening from time to time already…y…y…y this thing have to come out and bother me…Y?!?!?!haiz…..am i wrong?am i wrong to think that the thing that i’m thinking is wrong?all the thing i did is also wrong???can someone juz tell me??haiz…everytime i talk to u…thn answer u gave me is always a dead end…its like forcing a ppl walk to a place whr he knoe if he still continue..he’ll meet a dead end at last…bt…u still keep forcing and forcing…nvr even care…y….y do u haf to do tis….tat night..i smsed u…and yet…wad end up?also a dead end…haiz…i’m totally pissed…really…REALLY PISSED!!!that whole night…the question of letting off or keep holding on flows in my brain…i wrote a sms…whn i press send..i cant find a person that i really share my problems with…am i juz too selfish?or?haiz…i asked my fren question..to let go or nt too..without mention wad thing…the answer he gave me…is that depending on wad issit…wow…wad a "great" answer i gt back…its like he’s juz turning around and around nia…haiz…the stress from everywhere….maybe this few days i had enuf pressure and had reach my limit…a pressure that u ppl wont really knoe….a pressure that will really make a ppl goes crazy…haiz….someone…if u read tis…plz…tell me…should i let go?or keep calm down and take it as nothing happen…haiz….i dun knoe…really..confused…maybe tis is the only way that i can really express my feeling…fate ppl which wont mind to click on my profile and view and read the blogs will be the ppl who knoe i really feel…usually i wont express my own feel unless special cases…haiz….someone..plz tell me…haiz….